1_up (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} 1_up) wrote,@ 2006-06-08 23:44:00 |
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Wanna ride the slingshot?
I'm becoming more capable. Things have really changed since a few months ago when I was confused with what to do with myself - when I wasn't sure of what opportunities to pursue and fill my life with. Actually, you could say it's quite the polar opposite now. I've now dedicated myself to many goals at once and find myself disappointed in not being able to commit enough time to either of them - or at least I feel that way. And with my strict character of self worth and satisfaction, that's not really too surprising.
Anyway. I'm now fully engaged in my small business, learning guitar, and reading a few books. Add that to my staple past-times of working out regularly and getting in some video game time, and you got a veritable tossed salad of life. Except, I try to balance it every day, and that's not working out. Not at all really. Today I wanted nothing to do with my so called 'home' pursuits. I came home, napped hard, ate, played Dragon Quest 8 for like 3 hours, put laundry away, and now here I am.
I really wanted to make guitar practice a daily staple, but it won't be easy. The small business work is pretty time consuming, and I can't slack on the gym. I just don't feel right substituting for it - it's just a non-negotiable part of my life now. But I need to find give somewhere - I'm more and more tired everyday. I fall asleep at work sometimes and can't focus. I considered buying caffeing pills or mints of something to make up for my daytime lack of zeal - but maybe I should just get more sleep?
It's like I just bounce from one extreme to the other. I'm so extreme!
Oh, and in other news. The new job rotations came in recently. With any luck, I'll be spending the next 6 months either in Massachusetts or London ... or maybe Portland.
Going to sleep now. Making it an early night.
I'm becoming more capable. Things have really changed since a few months ago when I was confused with what to do with myself - when I wasn't sure of what opportunities to pursue and fill my life with. Actually, you could say it's quite the polar opposite now. I've now dedicated myself to many goals at once and find myself disappointed in not being able to commit enough time to either of them - or at least I feel that way. And with my strict character of self worth and satisfaction, that's not really too surprising.
Anyway. I'm now fully engaged in my small business, learning guitar, and reading a few books. Add that to my staple past-times of working out regularly and getting in some video game time, and you got a veritable tossed salad of life. Except, I try to balance it every day, and that's not working out. Not at all really. Today I wanted nothing to do with my so called 'home' pursuits. I came home, napped hard, ate, played Dragon Quest 8 for like 3 hours, put laundry away, and now here I am.
I really wanted to make guitar practice a daily staple, but it won't be easy. The small business work is pretty time consuming, and I can't slack on the gym. I just don't feel right substituting for it - it's just a non-negotiable part of my life now. But I need to find give somewhere - I'm more and more tired everyday. I fall asleep at work sometimes and can't focus. I considered buying caffeing pills or mints of something to make up for my daytime lack of zeal - but maybe I should just get more sleep?
It's like I just bounce from one extreme to the other. I'm so extreme!
Oh, and in other news. The new job rotations came in recently. With any luck, I'll be spending the next 6 months either in Massachusetts or London ... or maybe Portland.
Going to sleep now. Making it an early night.
